Monthly Archives: August 2014

Guilt trip

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Held captive, full of disappointment.. He traps his mind, picking at it looking for lost thoughts that only lasted a moment. Seeking answers by day, destroying himself by night. Countless hours disappear as he hides from the image in sight. He looks at himself again only to not recognize his face. An empty soul, calibrated with his mind and heart. He was beginning to despair of ever knowing… Loosing himself further away, binding his emotions that slowly seem to decay. @SmileSick

The Devil’s work

Lost in questions of why? How? It shouldn’t had been like this.. A fairy tale gone bad to the absolutely worst. I sit here till she gets home just reviewing the devils work. It’s funny because the devil himself was once an angel, like her they fell from heaven bringing everything down with them. 5pm I see the door knob turn, she enters with a silent stare.. Her eyes know the deal, from the look on my face is hard to hide these feels. She runs to knee down begging please. I wish I could believe those tears but the fear that her heart is far too gone won’t let me. I look at her and tell her to not cry, tonight is just the beginning of her new life.. Troubled in questions of why? And how? I still don’t have the answers I seek it’s been a year now and I see her with him. Only to see that he’s in my place… Could of been me… A devil in disguise she taunts love to please herself. A victim to her game left with nothing but agony and shame.. @SmileSick

On the Edge

I seem to have lost myself..distant from the person I used to be. I hope you can forget the things I have lack. They weren’t on purpose but I couldn’t be someone I’m not. They say lonesome may lead to insanity but ever since you walked out, I seem to find my sanity. I gave you my heart, my biggest regret… How can I love you when I didn’t know how to love myself. On the edge of life, living like it’s my last. @Smilesick