Love from a Blinds eye πŸ–€

January 10, 2018

I can’t help but think about you, in ways that I just feel blessed to have someone like you in my life. Today I felt sadness due to the lost of a friend and you were there to

Comfort me in many ways, although you’re not 100% you managed to be there for me. I can’t tell you how much these little things mean.. a day at time, always and forever..

-SmileSick

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Love from a blinds eye πŸ–€

January 9, 2018

I woke up today with the same mindset as yesterday, I can feel the growth inside for the amount of Love I have for you. I read an article that stated that to love a broken person you have to give them all of you and believe in them no matter what and I can follow you to the moon and back. I realized that I have to be more open with you to gain your trust, to show you things that will help structure the understanding to us. I know that each day that passes your walls as not as high. As for now I can only keep going a day at a time. It’s Tuesday and it’s like we’re both on a thread mill only way to go is forward. You’re worth living for..

-SmileSick

Love from a blinds eye πŸ–€

January 8, 2018

Today like many days you feel overwhelmed and half filled to what happiness is.

Monday may not come you as a big surprise as you feel these emotions running slowly and dragging you as your day progresses. You can’t feel, yet you feel everything at once and it fucking bothers you to be this way.

Lost and desperate your mind is all over except where you need it to be, and that’s ok. This just means the long journey to new unpaved roads lay ahead. As ghostly companion I am here, in spirit and physically to never let you fall. By your side I will be here through the difficulty that Monday brings, a day at time, my heart is yours as I too am on a mission to seek yours.

-SmileSick

Love from a blinds eye πŸ–€

The beginning..

So I decided to start a blog on the many first dates I’ve encounter and will with you.

I know one day you will read this and look back and piece together my proven love..

I decided to title this Love at blinds eye because we didn’t fall for each other due to physical attraction, that was always there but not what did it. We felt a special connection that rarely occurs when two humans can be lost in a time warp and as the earth spins everything in their moment stops as they feel everything from another.

-SmileSick

Far too gone..

You let me go a long time ago.  

It’s the woman you used to be

That you can’t let go of, 

The woman you were when 

You were with me 

Is who YOU CANNOT GET OVER
I am just collateral damage 

Of your identity crisis 
Now, 

Here we are 

And somehow you think 

You can be in two places at once 
But you can’t be her, 

And be you too. 
Because those soft spoken words

that she used to whisper 

are now a silent voice misguided 

into tired ears. 
I can’t help but think 

of moments of clarity that

I have for you. 
The ones that drive every decision

I make mad for the unstable feelings

I get in return. 
At night I lay alone wanting to be 

with you, every thought, 

every wish coming together as 

one to fulfill a dream that  

I can look forward to. 
Focusing my actions of unwanted love 

leaves me to be an open 

target to those around me 

to bring me down, 

you are my weakness 

yet my strength, 

you are my hope but 

my lack of faith. 
I will always follow 

and desire you to be with 

me no matter the distance 

Or space. 
I am a sucker for your love. 
A puppet in your ruling hands

to an endless show. 

Your beauty is sourly 

tasted entwined with

your sweet soul. 
-SmileSick 

I fucked it all up.Β 


I love my broken thoughts of you too much to let go of this uncertain entity. 

Facing my demons every night, 
overcoming the feeling from the novacane, 

Not sure if I’m in love with you or lost in lust within your hell. 
I fucked it all up. 

To the point that I love my broken thoughts of you. 

-SmileSick 


Driving on empty streets, I come to a complete stop. 

Looking back at my rear view mirror, I see a reflection of my past. 

Facing west but desiring east,  you would think behind the wheel, I’d have a sense of direction. 

But truth unfolds I remain lost,  Catching street lights,  to see if you would catch up to me. 

And as my mind pounders on the thought of you, the light turns green. 

Asking me to go and leave you behind where you belong. 

-SmileSick 

  
I’ve always been one to open up and let anyone in. 

Too hurt, too many times to allow myself to fall for false hopes. 

But in the belief of wanting something more I’ve found myself searching for endless love in all the wrong places. 

Closing my doors to allow anyone in, 

you managed to sneak in. 
I’ll be lost without you, but when push comes to shove I’m not sure if I’ll ever trust you. 

I’ve learned to live on my own, but in this short period in time, I’m not sure what it’s like to not have you anymore. 

I’ve taken more than what I can afford. 

-SmileSick