January 19, 2018
Have you ever thought to yourself what is wrong with you?
As if life’s pattern is meant to bring you pain
in the strangest ways. You meet someone and
allow yourself to open up and the moment
your walls begin to fall the person you
wanted in decided to walk away..
where do you go from there?
How do you pick up the crumbled
pieces and rebuild what seemed forever to built.
How do you stare at yourself without
yelling and screaming wanting to break
your own reflection for the same mistake reoccurring.
This downhill spiral that has now become
your life hurts less than the last time as
parts of yourself have slowly deteriorated into nothing..
Where do you start again?
Where do you go from there?
January 8, 2018
Today like many days you feel overwhelmed and half filled to what happiness is.
Monday may not come you as a big surprise as you feel these emotions running slowly and dragging you as your day progresses. You can’t feel, yet you feel everything at once and it fucking bothers you to be this way.
Lost and desperate your mind is all over except where you need it to be, and that’s ok. This just means the long journey to new unpaved roads lay ahead. As ghostly companion I am here, in spirit and physically to never let you fall. By your side I will be here through the difficulty that Monday brings, a day at time, my heart is yours as I too am on a mission to seek yours.
You were the epitome of my words;
scriptures summoned in your absence
by a half empty glass of your darkness.