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Self Note..

It’s time to rebuilt…

You keep holding on to these crumbling walls

And it’s taking everything out of you..

It’s time to let go and let it all fall, I promise you,

You’ll rise again..

Tonight I change my life, all for you (Me).

-SmileSick

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Love from a blinds eye 🖤

January 8, 2018

Today like many days you feel overwhelmed and half filled to what happiness is.

Monday may not come you as a big surprise as you feel these emotions running slowly and dragging you as your day progresses. You can’t feel, yet you feel everything at once and it fucking bothers you to be this way.

Lost and desperate your mind is all over except where you need it to be, and that’s ok. This just means the long journey to new unpaved roads lay ahead. As ghostly companion I am here, in spirit and physically to never let you fall. By your side I will be here through the difficulty that Monday brings, a day at time, my heart is yours as I too am on a mission to seek yours.

-SmileSick

  
I’ve always been one to open up and let anyone in. 

Too hurt, too many times to allow myself to fall for false hopes. 

But in the belief of wanting something more I’ve found myself searching for endless love in all the wrong places. 

Closing my doors to allow anyone in, 

you managed to sneak in. 
I’ll be lost without you, but when push comes to shove I’m not sure if I’ll ever trust you. 

I’ve learned to live on my own, but in this short period in time, I’m not sure what it’s like to not have you anymore. 

I’ve taken more than what I can afford. 

-SmileSick

My cry for help

My cry for help

I wrote down feelings

Convincing myself that

I am ok,

Truth is I’m not,

Too far from great

I wake up each day

In hopes of something more
They read and like but do they ever understand,
They relate to the idea of it

but can never comprehend,

the literacy.
Silent screams project throughout me

Onto the empty pages

Creating a cinematic story.
-SmileSick

El Paso, Texas

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She gave me a sight of hope, she also put me through hell. Her imperfections brought a smile to my face, a connection I cannot explain. My days blossomed into a romance as the night took over. I’m beginning to think that no matter what my fate is to be with her, often i ran away to find a better life, but some how I was always lead back to her.
These streets took me in at a young age, and I still remain loyal to her,
my thoughts, my every breath,
my first love, my city..
El Paso, Texas.. You’ve reminded me many times why I love what I do and to always love myself. Tonight you shine brighter than always because I realized how blessed I am to be taken under your wing.
-SmileSick

Burlesque Queen

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She dances on the pole, showing her artistic expression..out of control she breaks hearts not caring; she’s cold.. Eyes were enamored to the stage as she progresses. Infatuated by the fame status, giving herself to the music, Fervid attention from crazed fans. As she twirls around unraveling her top. Her hands traveling throughout her body. Nothing else matters in the world but just her and that money. Her hair falls perfectly onto her beautiful face, her legs, her ass oh my throwing me into a haze. Expectations can kill a simple man. She moves the pole in a motion I can’t comprehend. Stroking her hair back as she bends down, ass touching the ground. She puts that pussy in control, catching feelings but looks the other way. A love that will never grow, she belongs to the world. The songs almost over and I’m ready to let her teach me how to feel, how to love. Burlesque queen, mine for the night. Lost in Lust.
-SmileSick

️Over Calm Waters

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I know you’re out there somewhere in the depths of the ocean, and I also know that in this lifetime I will run into you again.

I’m not sure how long It will be until I’m welcomed by your smile, but this scenery that reminds me of you makes it worth my while.

I wish you were able to enjoy this, the unruffled waters beneath the sinking sun. Your troubled mind can use the tranquility, I know how peevish I can be, all in your mind but away from your heart.
-SmileSick